E-mails from someone who refuses to identify him/her self

I have been getting e-mails lately from an anonymous sender who uses the handle "your friend". The first one that I got says that he or she is responding to my blog post but is unable to post the intended reply on my blog site. The person has been sending me bible verses about anger, love, and now, false prophets. In the previous e-mails, this unidentified person says that he or she is thinking about me as she reads those bible passages and sends them out to me. 

I replied several times asking who this person is but I never got an answer to my question. Instead, I would get several more bible passages. I have a suspect already and I did reply to this person's e-mails mentioning the name but as expected, my e-mails again were never answered. I have no proof of course if my suspect is indeed the person who has been sending me these e-mails. I am not exactly sure what this person is trying to tell me with all those scripture passages that he or she has been sending. I can just speculate. What kind of mind would this person has? If there are any profilers reading this blog entry of mine then I sure would appriciate your two cents.

Lessons on forgiveness and repentance.

“Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you” (Colossians 3:13).


The Lord has been teaching me a lot about forgiveness lately. I was brought to a situation wherein my anger was aroused because I was provoked but the Lord used this situation to make me realize my own shortcomings. I have to much anger in my heart and the Lord reminded me to treat others as I would want to be treated. All to often, we sin when we are provoked, not realizing that we to have fallen short. We become so consumed by our emotions that we get blinded and judge others to quickly. 


Recent events in my life are tools that the Lord uses to teach me something. Lessons of value which I often fail to learn in the past. Lessons of value that I need to be reminded of. the Lord has been disciplining me and no discipline seems pleasant but God loves me so much that he has to spank me at times so that I would live according to His ways and not remain in the grip of sin which so easily entangles me.


The Lord wants me to forgive those who has hurt me because he forgave me first for I to have sinned and fell short of His glory. Forgiving those who have hurt you is not an easy thing to do but God's love compels me and I must follow. 

A song for all who feels broken.

All of us have had some experience that we are in a deep valley with no hope, but the good news is, Someone has gone before us. That Someone is Jesus. We must go through the valley to stand before the mountain of God.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dgeMHHbFslk&feature=related

The Lord never gave up on me.

It's amazing how all the things that we experience would have a purpose and a good one at that. I have been down and out since Monday night because of an incident that took place which got me really consumed by my anger. The Lord has disciplined me because of the way I reacted when I was under fire. I have sinned and the Lord has rebuked me.

As I was reading through the book of Deuteronomy today, I was reminded of how stubborn I am like the Israelites were. Deuteronomy chapter 8 in particular reminded me to keep the Lord's teaching in my heart at all times. here is the passage that the Lord has used to speak to me.

¹ Be careful to follow every command I am giving you today, so that you may live and increase and may enter and possess the land the LORD promised on oath to your ancestors. ² Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. ³He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your ancestors had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD. ⁴ Your clothes did not wear out and your feet did not swell during these forty years. ⁵Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the LORD your God disciplines you.

 ⁶ Observe the commands of the LORD your God, walking in obedience to him and revering him. ⁷ For the LORD your God is bringing you into a good land—a land with brooks, streams, and deep springs gushing out into the valleys and hills; ⁸ a land with wheat and barley, vines and fig trees, pomegranates, olive oil and honey; ⁹ a land where bread will not be scarce and you will lack nothing; a land where the rocks are iron and you can dig copper out of the hills. -  Deuteronomy 8:1-9

After reading this passage of scripture, I realized that I haven't been really walking in obedience to the Lord. All the hardships that I am facing right now is a result of my stubborn will. I have been a Christian for many years but I haven't entered the promise land yet because of my disobedience. I have constantly relied on my own understanding instead of trusting the Lord with all my heart. 

The past few days may have been dark and gloomy for me but today, the Lord has reminded me that he still loves me and hasn't given up on me. I may have given up on other people and at other times It may seem that I have given up on the Lord but once again, he has shown me that he is still in the background of my life, watching over me and disciplines me when necessary. For those of you who are reading this, It is my prayer that God would continue to speak to you as he has with me. Pray for me that I will constantly focus my eyes on the Lord even as I go through hard times. he hasn't given up on me and I'm possitive that he hasn't given up on you.

A not so happy birthday

never in my 37 years of existence has somebody every ruined my birthday until now. Instead of feeling happy I am now full of anger in my heart because of one person who provoked like no one else ever has. Why did it have to be like this? This person whom I thought is my friend turns out to be one big bully. There is nothing that hurts more than being treated like trash on your birthday by someone you cared about. I will never forget this day and what that person did to me.

Birthday Musings

I woke up this morning and realized that I am a year older. My goodness! I'm 37 years old already! Is this a dream or a nightmare? They say that we gain more wisdom as we grow old so I guess I am thankful for that. I still have a lot of things that I want to do and accomplish before I turn 40. Settling down is one of them of course. =) Other things would include winning a gold medal in the national judo championships, go sky diving, etc and do missionary work in Japan.

It only seems like yesterday that I was a young kid. Time flies indeed. I am an adult and I have set aside childish ways behind me. I am an adult with lots of responsibilities. I hope to draw more closer to the Lord as the days go by especially as I share the good news of the gospel to my fellow athletes. The experiences that I've had, the skills that I acquired, the friends that I have are all part of what I am today, a disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ. I look back over my years that have gone by and thank the Lord for everything that was and about to come.

The growing up years.

I love looking at old photos of me and the family. makes me want to go back to those years and re-live my childhood. =) I'm also fond of seeing how I looked back then and now.

This is me all through out those years. How I've grown up!

From infant to toddler to adult.

Sailing through a stormy week.

The past week has not been good for me. The struggles that I face has all of a sudden intensified. I had face several instances that really tested my patience and my life as a Christian and I failed miserably. Just when I thought things were going bad and I'm almost out of the eye of the storm, another one came this afternoon gushing in like a strong wave which got me depressed again.

Other people may ask me, where id your God in this storm? he has abandoned you! I have to admit that sometimes I would have those thoughts but I would be always reminded that there is a God who is with me every step of the way. I guess you could say that I don't want to give up hope easily. Today, God has closed a door for me but he will open a window for me to see that there is hope. That He is in control.

I have already proven to my self that time and time again I would fail whenever I would assume the position of the helm of my life but I would always end up crashing and burning. God is not finish with me yet, I am a work in progress and I would cling on to my hope in God and refuse my soul to be downcast.