When friends bail out of your life.

When I was watching episode 6 of The TV series the walking dead, one of the characters said something that struck me. When one of their companions decided to quit in life and die, her friend told her that "It is not fair for you to make someone care and then bail out." This was exactly what happened to me a couple of years ago. I met someone who became close to me, she even called me her big brother and we spent time with each other. We met in a conference while vacationing from the states. She made me feel so special, It was like having a younger sister who cared. All was going well for a couple of months then something strange happened.

A month before she left for the states, I didn't receive any communication from her. I even texted her when something happened to me that really got me down but she already a different person at that time; I was already getting a cold shoulder treatment from her. Days turned into weeks and I hardly heard from her until she left without even saying good bye. My birthday came and there wasn't even any greeting from her. I asked my self what was going on but I didn't have any answers. More than a year has passed, she came back here for a visit but she never bothered to contact me. She was in and out of the country without letting me know that she as here.

I sent her a message through facebook asking her if I did something wrong and that I was sorry for anything that I could have done. She said that I didn't do anything wrong and that she was sorry for not touching base with me but she didn't answer my question about why she didn't say good bye when she went back to the states. I then found out that she was already going steady with a common friend. Don't get me wrong here, I wasn't jealous or anything, I treated her like a younger sister and she calls me kuya. There was even a time that she said that I will always be her kuya whenever she is here in the country.

I am jealous over the fact that I was forgotten. She made me care for her then she bailed out of my life without any explanation. Call me sensitive but it really hurts. It ain't fair. I moved on and tried to forget about her but the memory of her still haunts me till now. I have a younger sister but she treats me like trash, my own flesh and blood. Then there was her who made me feel like I had a wonderful, younger sister; but the feeling only lasted for a short time. Why did something like this had to happen? I don't have the answers and I might never get them; I'm just holding on to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ who promised never to leave of forsake me. Friends may come and go and forget all about you but Christ never will.

What does the bible say about suicide?

In Matthew 11:28, Jesus says, “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” He knows that this life is difficult, so He wants to remove the burdens we carry. We may suffer for a little while, there may be great pain at times, but Jesus will carry us through the hard times. He promises, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you" (Heb. 13:5b). Remember that, no matter how bleak a situation may appear, it is only temporary in the scope of eternity with Christ. Rest in that hope, that promise.

Taking your own life because you are in despair only means that you have failed to put your trust and hope in the Lord. God created us so who are we to say that we know better? Can the invention say to the inventor how he is suppose to function? Proverbs 3:5-6 says Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. 

The Bible may not directly say that suicide is a sin but what are your motives for doing so? Some people may say that it is the honorable and courageous thing to do but the ones who say this are only basing this on their own understanding.